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| HI! |
[22 Feb 2004|12:10pm] |
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hey all. tis been long since I've last posted in this journal. all I can say is that I've move to another, newer journal.
I found myself being stuck in this journal, maybe because I wanted to change but could not because I've so much on this journal.
but I've moved on, and I'm generally feeling much better after switching journals. right now my new[give or take a few months] journal's here...you guys can throw me off your friends' list if you want to, I won't take it personally. I'm sucha boring sod anyways!
anyhoo...take care y'all. thanks for sticking by this journal even in its dying days. thank you all so much! :)
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[14 Sep 2003|08:57pm] |
On Hiatus
because nobody cares.
seriously.
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| I'm gettin quite irritable nowadays. |
[11 Sep 2003|12:56am] |
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yup. The topic says it all. I find myself getting irritated by my close buds now. I dunno why...let's just blame it all on PMS and see how it goes.
yesterday's convo with Mei en made me dredge up the many memories/events where my sister had hurt me...*sigh*
it's not anybody's fault but mine I guess.
And Luke! I'm SO sorry that I keep pissin you off. *bows deeply*
OH YATTA! I'mma gonna go to Shibuya High School's summer fest. Heh! :D
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| in school now |
[09 Sep 2003|10:18am] |
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oh man. just when I thought i got two A-pluses, I failed my practical [a fucking 6/20!!!] and my A plus for biochem got pulled down to a D.
D for depressing.
Oh fuck.
Sigh.
I'm in dire need of endorphins.
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| ooh-er. |
[08 Sep 2003|11:18pm] |
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today was rather tiring.
got back my programming and organic biochemistry results.
guess wot
Both A-pluses! [plus for programming I got tops for the whole level of first years taking programming. I'm turning into a right little hermoine granger, oh yes.]
I'm so accomplished of myself. At least now I get
to laugh at jun qi cuz I have the ability to.
HA HA
wipe that stupid smirk off your face. You too tanchinhong.
you and your stupid questions.
anyway I managed to finish my ITA projects, [oh joy!]
but tomorrow is gonna be equally tiring, even tho there's like only three lessons.
three very LONG lessons. >__< arghies.
now the class is talking about having a chalet. good. at least this shows our rapport have grown quite well!
yay-ness! Loved the pre-planned bomb war we had. it was all good.
all those strategy mapping and wetness, oh joy! I love spotaneity.
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[07 Sep 2003|05:14pm] |
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I burnt my tongue.
And I'm freaking sleepy. And i have three tutorials to do, an vlardee pointless mail merge [honestly, what's the point of teaching this to 17 year olds who are extremely unlikely to turn into executive before 20 so that we need to send all this smarmy-schfarmy kinda letters?! Why can't they teach us better stuff like how to make your word stand out or something]
help?
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[06 Sep 2003|12:01am] |
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Lj has a new layout! I like.
third layout, innit? To think I stayed thru its changes. Heh.
karen's discharged from the hospital, and she kinda hurt me indirectly in the hospital, because she wanted so badly to go back to school cuz she wanted to see her godbrothers and sisters. and she doesn't even care about me...*sigh* saddening.
went back to JVS to play with clay, it was really fun, just that I didn't know what the hell to make. plus the two art-farts that were with me had such nice artpieces. *huffs*
then rushed back home to doll myself up [not very] to go to my third uncle's house. His cousin was the first among the third generation [ie us] to get registered [married!!] His wife was so PRETTY! *dies* But she's three years older. Not that I'm saying anything but it was weird since he was quite...ehh...immature? Sounded quite girlish too.
Anyway...tomorrow's the bbq. Heh Heh Heh. *devious planning ahead*
got two projects to do...tata.
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[03 Sep 2003|12:40pm] |
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studied till three in the morning, ye lords. *pokes eyebags* Now I'm setting off for the hospital; her op went well, just that she had two IV lines...[mei en, did you have that much iv lines?? You did right? Not sure...I have a foggy mind]
Meh. Still have two chapters to go and I'm not panicking. Maybe tomorrow I'll panic??
Craziness. I want to sleep.
( one quiz for the road? )
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| today was...medical. |
[03 Sep 2003|12:11am] |
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second youngest sister is plagued with appendixitis [sp?]
havin her op as I speak/as you read this now..
well the whole day was sorta awry due to this..resulting of that I went to NUH and caused a great deal of embarrassment today. A cute medical student came up to me to survey me about my sister. *beams* My mom said he was cute though. I was going, "uhhh riggghhto." because I felt he looked like junxian harhar!!
But yeah...I think she'll be alright. despite me bitching about her most of the time I guess I still care about her, even though she doesn't reciprocate it back to me.*sigh* she was scared of the op I think..cried when she was about to go into the theatre. I wasn't there to witness it cuz I was at home packing her toiletries and taking care of the youngest sister. She can't go visit her sister as she wasn't 16 and above. thankfully this incident happened when I'm like over 16 so I could come and go and help mom out.
A good thing that came out of this incident was that dad had been very nice to her and mom. not that he wasn't nice to them in the first place. But the fact that the operation costs was around 5,000 bucks made my jaw drop. ack. that was so expensive!!! o__O;;
Oh well. I've gotta go make up for the time wasted today...phys. sys test's on thurs. ARGH! *panicks*
There's many good things borne outta this bad incident today..
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| my room |
[02 Sep 2003|01:37am] |
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I want a beanbag in my room. Or a bigger one won't hurt.
I also want the mogu beanie toy which is so squishable.
I want linen drapes *oooh* and sky-high windows. Plus a double metal-framed bed, soft blue pillows and a checkered blanket with a red rug on the floor!
I'll have a shelf for all my stuffed toys and there will be NO PAPER in my room. *glares sideways at the pile of papers stacked skyhigh*
*nods* Then I'll have a nice red wardrobe at the side.
*dreams*
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| I hate poop |
[31 Aug 2003|01:27pm] |
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You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.
What Kind of Smile are You?
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The reason I hate poop is not because of my own; how is it possible for me to hate something that occurs naturally?
It's the aftermath, rather, that I hate. Yesterday I was walking Baby when I stepped in bloody fucking doggy poo some other owner has left there considerately. It was squishy and yellow and there were semi-digested bits in it and GOD! the smell can challenge a skunk.
I was so irritated because I was wearing my new slippers and they HAD to be broken in with dog poop. So I had to use the paper that was meant for Baby's poop to wipe the worst away from the sole. It's v hard to do so, esp when you have a hyper puppy tugging at her leash and you're trying to balance one one foot ala pink flamingo style.
It's so annoying, that owners just leave their dogs' poops everywhere on the grass. There was once I saw this maid pulling the dog and half-dragging/lifting it away when it was pooping halfway and some of them just scattered on the pavement. That is so cruel to the dog plus supremely inconsiderate. And what's with them just leaving the poop on the grass? You're demeaning the foreign workers because you think of them equal to pick up your dog's poop. Some Singaporeans are utterly utterly uncivilised.
Baby did poop in the end and I didn't have anymore paper to pick it up. I brought her home and came out again just to pick it up. A pointed statement to the fellow dog owners present that I am at least a responsible dog owner.
Hmph. Call me a saint but I don't care. Stepping in poop kinda changes your attitude towards people who keeps dogs just for the sake of the subtle bragging, "Oh *I* have a dog and *you* don't because I have *more* money than you".
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| He called me!!! OMG |
[30 Aug 2003|11:41pm] |
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Eminem - Lose Yourself (FULL) |
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*jumps around like a happy bunny* :D
Daddy got back from his trip in HK and korea. *num* Bought home loads of shirts :D~~
And he even got 'I am Sam'!! Dakota is a great kid actress. I fell in love with her during her role in CSI as the blonde's daughter.
==
You know what I'd kill for? A movie that I don't know the story about, and I go to watch it, and I get my pants blown out by the twists and turns in the movie. That happened during The Ring and The Sixth Sense. They were good movies. Very, very good.
But there's so much hyperbole nowadays, even the poster gives the story away! Haaah.
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[30 Aug 2003|05:35pm] |
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I cut my hair!!!
And mom had some dye left over so she dyed my hair...um...red?
^^;; I guess I'd give a shock to all the people in my class on thurs. :P Actually I don't look half-bad. My hair's shade looks awfully just like Qiu Li's though. O__o
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| I feel left out. |
[29 Aug 2003|09:49pm] |
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all my old sec skool friends went back to jurongville today. even chin hong came up to me to say "Whaoooo today so many people appeared in [jurongville] school!!"
I told him to fuck off.
But everyone seemed to have so much fun while I was stressing myself up over my cell bio fiasco. *sniffle*
They even took back their batik. I'm just a stoopid ninny who the others will say, "Oh she thinks her cell bio's more important than teachers' day soooo she's not coming back today." when teachers ask about me. [if they still remember me.]
how come everyone seems to just congregate on the day *I* don't go? The annual dinner wasn't even that HOT amongst us.
fuck lar. :(
I'm still the same ole me.
on a lighter note cell bio went pretty _____. Yes, _____. I also got the last book in the series of Arisu 9th, which was Watase Yuu's latest manga series. :]
played basketball today too. got splinters in my hand, catcalled a talented javelin player with a nice rear and made him look v paiseh. Heh. Too much stress??
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[29 Aug 2003|09:03am] |
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frankly, i cannot remember anything i've studied.
oh. my. god.
PANICK!!!!!
*dies*
*crawls up to revise feverishly*
And my teacher is psycho.
Look what she posted on MeL.
Thu, Aug 28, 2003 -- Don't burn the midnight oil!
Sleep early, nothing to fear
See you tommorow 3-5
LT22 is the place.
ack. yeah sure.
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[29 Aug 2003|01:25am] |
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that I just got the runs? grreeeaaattt timing. < /sarcasm >
and now I'm procrastinating like crazy?! farrk. at this rate it won't be surprising if i failed.
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| time to show my real self. |
[28 Aug 2003|07:06pm] |
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warning : may cause concussion, clots in vital arteries and seizures. please skip if you suffer from heart disease or just have small balls.
( ..me! )
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[28 Aug 2003|12:21pm] |
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god is everybody out to annoy me today. starters for the day was my sister tramping around on my newly-mopped floor with her shoes on. That is so fucking annoying. Maybe one day I should thrust to both girls a mop and a vaccuum and make them mop their hearts out. Then I'll walk around the house with my dustiest shoes and shed dust all over the place.
Do you know how icky that feels?!
Then I brought her down to wait for her school van. It usually comes at 1135 but today I had to sit my ass waiting for it to come at 1150. The mother who was taking a free lift from the uncle was late as usual, and for what reason? Putting on her makeup at 1115 and taking a helluva long time at it. I know cuz I called her daughter before to cajol her down, and she said, "Oh but my mommy's still putting on her makeup."
Wtf indeed. It's not only the children who needs some etiquette readjustments. Just because of her bloody lipstick 5 children are gonna be late for school. High and mighty; looking down on us just because her hubby's a pastor. Acting so holy whenever I see her. Maybe she should wear a habit to work! That's a great idea.
And when I come home I've got to study AND clean up baby's poo corner at the same time. And it's not like the whole family's too busy to do this chore. The second one comes home looking like a bloody lian with her altered short skirt and not-tucked-in blouse, and plonks her arse in front of the computer or the tv. No wonder her grades are getting bad.
It seems like when I'm finally home with a break, I'm turning into the family maid.
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it's endearing to see an old man enjoying a macdonald's ice cream cone, with a ice-cream mustache to boot.
it's endearing to see children pottering after their daddy, wearing their pyjamas.
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day two : I didn't do anything. OOH my goodness. Tmr must mug mug mug..>__
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hello.
day two of studying.
one word : urgh.
help i'm procrastinating
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